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I remember someone wrote that if you fill your partner's heart with love and it overflows, everything that spills out will be yours. That’s what I’ve tried to live by in our relationship, but it seems like your heart is either unfillable or that overflow is going to someone or something else. 

Tonight I couldn’t find my retainer. I’ve gotten used to you not giving it to me anymore, but to not even put it out? That stings. I drove you around to get all the stuff you wanted tried to save you time, but no time to was left for me.

I recently heard someone say that in a relationship, a man begins by treating his partner how he wants to be treated and ends up treating her how she treats him. I’m not sure I’m close to that point yet, but I do find myself thinking what do you do for me? That comment today about wishing I was your brother so you didn’t have to pay for anything kind of let me see how you feel about me. 

You’ve done a pretty decent job of not bringing up how I spend my money, but that comment kind of brought that vitriol back. It wasn’t pleasant for me. It’s unfortunate that people don’t know what they have until it’s gone. And if you make it to heaven and God tells you how great you had it with me, it’ll be too late for you to show that appreciation. I hope I’m wrong or delusional about these thoughts, but the actions speak for themselves. If I’m missing something, please let me know.

Hopefully by the time you read this things will be better. If not, hopefully you’ll be encouraged to be better. Otherwise we’ll have to find a new way forward. Or maybe I can find something to numb the pain. The gummies Alex brought were good. Your dad seems to enjoy smoking and beer…