Expiration Date

Each time I’ve ended a blog, it’s been to start another blog to signify a new chapter in our journey. However, I don’t know what the next chapter is. I’m reminded of an email I wrote early in our relationship about how upset I was after having to leave your house and drive home. At the moment, I have a similar feeling, but the circumstances are different.

Maybe it is true that nothing lasts forever and everything has its expiration date. I guess ours is sooner than I would have liked or expected. Unfortunately, I’ve done all I can. It doesn’t seem like you have any real interest in salvaging what we have. After our last talk I had hope, but maybe that was naive of me. Zebra can’t change their stripes and I guess you don’t care enough about me or us to change yours. But I can see why. You got what you wanted out of me (wedding, kid, photos). You suggested marriage counseling, but at this point, I don’t see the point. You do not have any real desire to move outside your comfort zone. And it’s outside that zone where salvation lies. Anyhow, there’s so much more I want to say, but I’m sure this is already “too heavy” as it is for you. I wish your all the best. I hope you find someone who can love and care for you as much as you want in return for what you are willing to put in. I just can’t put any more in because I have nothing left to give.